Just some thoughts I felt like getting out into the ether:
In my day-to-day normal schlub life I present as male (For work and other obligations), but looking back I don't know if I've ever felt male internally during those times, as opposed to neutral, which is to say my external appearance is male, but internally I neutral by proxy of apathy. (Any time I've felt female I make it apparent with my appearance.)
I ought to mention when I say "Feeling Male" I'm talking about it in the context of how society has defined (Frequently stereotypically) what it means to be male in modern times in a first world country.
I've had plenty of good experiences while presenting male, but looking back I don't think they would have been improved or denigrated whether I was presenting male or not. (Whereas I've had numerous delightful experiences while femme that would not have worked whatsoever had I been masc.) And I wouldn't go so far as to call it dysphoria, but it's never felt good or bad to me whenever I've had to present masc for occasions. It's just kind of something that's happened, with little bearing on my own emotional or psychological well-being.I dunno. Just felt like getting these thoughts out there, but I'm rambling at this point.